Surviving the test

We got our End of the Grade, state test scores back. My kids did really well!!!! The scores can range from 1-4. 4 is the highest. 11 of my 22 students got 4s! None of the kids went backwards. I am so proud of them!

Waiting to try conceiving

Friday marked one month since we lost Jalen. It seems like only yesterday. It was only fitting that I ended up getting my period on Friday also. How ironic!

Now we just have 2 more months to wait until we can start trying to get pregnant again. The wait is so hard! I swear this is harder than waiting for Christmas when I was a kid. Now that I know, I can actually get pregnant, I want to get back on the ball! Plus, the doctor said they would monitor me step by step to make sure I don't have another ectopic.

So, today is another day... and the wait continues.

A good day

Wow, it is great when your hormones are aligned! I remember now what it was like before everything got out of wack. I had a wonderful day where I smiled and laughed a lot. I joked around with my students. I delt with arguments and irritability from my students, with little reaction or stress. It was nice.

Only 16 days of school left. I can't believe the end of the year is finally here! Then I will have a few weeks off before I begin at the new year-round school.

The void

Yesterday was rough. It rained all day... and it is only 1 week until Mother's Day. I cried so much... DH was worried about me. I guess I just have to get through it. Some days I'm OK... I know what I've lost, and I can accept it. Other days, my whole world falls apart. I just feel like there is a big hole in my chest. After talking to a friend, I realized that the hole will never be filled... I'll just learn to live with it.

What an accomplishment!

I posted this on Saturday, but it didn't come out right. So, I'm posting it again.

Well, we got back from Brett's Half IronMan a couple of hours ago. He ate dinner and then went to bed around 7:00 pm. Can't say I blame him. We got up at 4 am. He finished the triathlon in 5 hours 54 minutes. That is really good for his first Half Iron Man... Especially considering he got a flat tire during the bike. He really kicked butt on the swim! He finished it in about 32 minutes. I think he was 2nd or 3rd in his division. I am so proud of him! Here is a picture of my "Iron Man" after the race.