The void

Yesterday was rough. It rained all day... and it is only 1 week until Mother's Day. I cried so much... DH was worried about me. I guess I just have to get through it. Some days I'm OK... I know what I've lost, and I can accept it. Other days, my whole world falls apart. I just feel like there is a big hole in my chest. After talking to a friend, I realized that the hole will never be filled... I'll just learn to live with it.